So a couple of weeks ago I attended a workshop for the primary board callings in our stake. I was currently the primary chorister and was anxious to hear of new ideas and help from other choristers in the stake. After the workshop I felt rejuvenated and re-energized to do things better, invite the Spirit more, and some other fun ideas to teach songs. As soon as I walked in the door Steven handed me his cell phone, it was Brother Gold from the bishopric calling and asking to meet with me that very night. I said, sure come on over, wondering why in the world he would need to see me. Well, we sat down, chatted a bit, and bam, he released me from my calling of primary chorister. I tried to keep my composure, but I couldn't hold it in. I just started to ball. I cried right in front of him and everything. I have to admit, I didn't want to be released and I thought that I wasn't going to be released either because the primary president and I spoke about it before this happened and we figured out a way that it could work. I then heard that he spoke with her and my husband to see what they thought about me being released...Steven said "yeah I could see that coming, but she will be disappointed." And the Primary President said "please no." Well, they released me anyway. I know that this isn't a very good attitude, but it is really hard. Heavenly Father is slowly and surely helping me to feel at peace with this.
Last week as I was sitting in sacrament meeting I looked around at those childrens' faces and I just started to get choked up. I feel so connected and attached to them. They helped build my testimony so much. Their hugs each week and smiling faces just made me so happy. I will miss them dearly, but know that Heavenly Father has another plan for me. This isn't the end of callings...ha ha...and my calling as a wife and mother right now is more important the my calling as primary chorister, is what my wise husband keeps telling me, and he's right.
5 comments:
I know what you mean about watching those little kids sing. I'm the Pianist and I have a hard time not getting choked up during their new song "I Know That My Savior Loves Me."
Well, that gets me pumped to get more into Primary. I haven't had this spiritual experience about serving in Primary yet... so hopefully I will like yourself. So, what's your new calling?
What a bummer! The kids came into relief society last week and sang for mothers day and I cried. I don't even know the kids so I can understand you getting teary! Steven is right, you do have an important calling!
Man, that is too bad. I bet you were so good too. Do you know what your new calling will be?
You were awesome in your calling, I loved music time for the short time I was in Primary. You were fun and energetic. I don't hear many people crying when they are released from Primary - it had a special place in your heart and it showed!
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